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Ramblin’

Thursdays are my “whatever is on my mind today” posts. Lots of times, that means kid stuff. Today, it’s kind of kid, kind of me.

Do you ever feel like no matter what you do, it’s not enough? I do. A lot. Since leaving my corporate job in December to pursue writing, Pilates and jewelry design full time. I was also hoping that I would have more time with the kids, an easier time keeping up with the cooking and the cleaning and the grocery shopping and, of course, a little bit of down time too.

I know, I was crazy.

Besides the things listed above, I work 22 hours a week at Whole Foods (which, btw, is just about the greatest job on earth). So right off the top, half of the time I thought I was gaining is gone.

And working for yourself is hard. Not the motivation piece, I don’t have a problem with that at all. But when something doesn’t happen or goes wrong, it’s all my fault. And when I can’t figure out how to make something work, or why no one seems to be finding me or hiring or buying from me or whatever, it’s up to me to fix.

That’s tough.

It’s a change. And sometimes I feel a bit deflated and defeated.

The house and kid stuff didn’t magically get fixed either. The kids are still in daycare (how else would I be able to get everything else done?) so they still leave early in the morning and get back in the late evening, often in time for dinner, baths a few books and bed. If I take time from my business work to clean the house, I feel guilty because I’m not bringing money in. If I don’t, I feel guilty for not keeping up with things better.

Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy at this point in my life. Life really is good. I’m just ramblin’ a bit, hopefully to be a bit encouraging to everyone else out there who feels like they need to do it all but can’t figure out how.

We’re all in the same boat.

This week on etsy: organization

Who wouldn’t want a bookcase like this:

Funky Entertainment Center from KidsCreationBeds

We’ve been spending a fair amount of time cleaning and organizing lately. I’ve made three trips to The Container Store without making a purchase. While I am a sucker for bins and drawers and anything to make things appear cleaner than they are, their stuff feels almost clinical to me. I want color and feeling!

Etsy is full of amazing organizational ideas. Check out some of my favorites in this week’s treasury. I’m especially excited about the meal planner hooks. That is absolutely genius.

Clouded #2

If you missed last week’s post, check it out here.

Clouded #2

“So tell me about it,” Ethan says, taking a swig of his beer.

I smile, sipping my coffee.  The exhilaration of having a job has hit me, and even though I’m still waking up, I’m almost giddy. We’re at the Special, the pub down the street from Ethan’s house.  We’ve been dating for almost six months, but most of our dates are like this: me on my way to work, him taking a break to grab a meal before going back to work. He works as a valet at the hotel, supplementing the income he makes as an artist manager.  The first time we went out I was planning to ask if he would hire me as an intern.  Instead, we ended up making out in the car.

It’s a beautiful day for January, and we’re sitting outside.  The sun is bright and reflects off the natural blond highlights in his brown hair.  His eyes shine behind his glasses with the thick red rims. I used to hate those glasses, but I’m getting used to them now.  They’re a little too Elton John for my taste.  He’s wearing valet uniform: black dress pants and white button down shirt.  He’ll probably change into shorts an a band t-shirt when he gets home.  I’ve got my work uniform on too, a black pencil skirt and blue button down blouse.

“The interview was weird.  It wasn’t really an interview even.  They knew they were going to offer me the job.”

“That’s great!” He grabs my hand across the table, playing with my fingers.

“What are you going to be doing?” he asks.

“I don’t really know. They didn’t really say.  Assisting Jonathan I guess.”

“What’s he do again?”

“Well, he was managing TheBrass. But he and Seth are starting a new company, and he’s going to be running it. I’ll be helping him with the accounting stuff.”

“For the new company, or for Clouded?”

“I don’t know.  All of it maybe.  There are nine companies that Seth operates.”

“Really?  How?  They’re not that big are they?”

I sip my coffee, then start twirling my hair around my finger.  “There around twenty or so employees.  Eight interns last semester.”

“But what all do they do?”

I sigh, frustrated that Ethan doesn’t know more about where I interned.  We’ve talked about it a million times.  “They manage.  And they’ve got the publishing thing.  And,” now I have to think.  How are there nine companies?  As an intern I spent a lot of time filing.  Endless hours stuck in the storage closet with cabinets tagged with color coded stickers to signify which business’ information they housed. I start counting them out on my fingers.  “There’s the management company.  Then there’s the publishing company.  Record label, booking agency.  Then there’s the business management side of it, and, of course, the main “Clouded” company.”

“What’s the difference between that and the management company?”

“I don’t know for sure.  I think that when Sylvie left Seth had to start a new company in order to fully dissolve the partnership.  All of her royalty checks still come to the main company though.”  Sylvie was Seth’s first artist.  They called her “A tomboy with an angel’s voice.”  She was just sixteen years old when a song she wrote was used as the main theme to a hit movie and her career took off.  She spent two years living the life: new cars, world tours, platinum record sales.  Then one day, she quit.  She didn’t want to do it anymore.

“Whatever happened to her anyway?” Ethan asks, munching on a fry.  He and Sylvie had been in school together briefly, when she went to Belmont University while on hiatus from touring.  She didn’t stay more than a semester though.

“I don’t know.  I know she was mentoring singer/songwriters for a while.  That was the whole basis of Clouded: getting songs placed in movies and on TV.  She would scout the talent, Seth would manage them.  She kind of gravitated toward the younger crowd, people around her own age.  Seth started doing business management for them because they were too young to take care of their own money. Did you know he set Revolver up with a 401K when the youngest guy was only 13 years old?”

“Who’s Revolver again?”

I narrow my eyes.  He’s teasing me, and I’m just not in the mood.  Revolver has been my favorite band since  high school.  During my senior year I wrote to their record label and asked how I could get into the music industry.  I never wanted to sing or be in the spotlight- I always wanted to be on the inside.  I wanted to help get the songs out.  They told me I should move to Nashville, go to Belmont and intern like crazy.  So I did.  The internship at Clouded was my third.  The first two had been at record labels.

Ethan laughed, squeezing my hand. We’re quiet for a while, him eating, me thinking about the night coming up.  I’ll be at the hotel from 11:00 pm to 8:00 am.  I’ve got a test in my Music Law class tomorrow at 8:30. I hope I’ll have time to study during work.  I should.  The hotel is relatively slow this week, no big conventions.

“Wait,” Ethan says, looking up from his hamburger.  “That’s only six.  I thought you said there were nine companies?”

I’m surprised he noticed.  I didn’t think he was listening very closely.  “Shreds is the other one that Seth owns.  Then there is Revolver and TheBrass.  We do all of their accounting stuff too.”

He nods.  “I wish everyone I worked with had business managers.  But I’d never want to do it for them.

Between Ethan and my teachers, I’m constantly hearing about how un-responsible artists are, how they need someone to manage their money for them.  But having a manager and a business manager be the same person…there are many who think it’s a conflict of interest, just because it’s so much power.  The manager does everything: coordinates all performances with the booking agent, all recording with the label, everything.  When a manager takes over the business management too, he’s got absolute power over both the artist’s schedule and money. When the business manager is a separate person, they can at least watch the financial side of things, be a second set of eyes.

“Who does Seth book now?” Ethan asks.

“I think just Revolver and TheBrass.  I think.”

“So what does everyone else there do?”

“Synchs.  They all work for the label and the publishing company.”  Seth’s empire was built from the money Sylvie made from her success in the movies, and it is the basis of his business.  He signs young songwriters to publishing deals, promising to get their songs placement in TV and movies.  If they’re performers and don’t have a deal with a record label, he records them on his label.  When that happens, he gets a share of both the publishing and the recording fees. Generally, though, most of the songwriters at Clouded just write.  Most never make a full length album.

“So Seth does everything Revolver and TheBrass?” Ethan asks, his eyebrows raised.

“Not anymore.  They both have their own label deals now. He used to do everything for Revolver, though.  They were so young when they started working with him, he just kind of took them under his wing and built them up.”

“Humph,” Ethan says, taking a big bite of his burger.

“What?” I ask, sensing that there is something that he’s not saying.

“Nothing.  I mean,” he wipes his mouth, finishes chewing, and takes a sip of his Coke.  “I mean, it’s just a lot.  To not have more people involved with.  He’s got his hand in all of the cookie jars.”

“What are you saying?”  I cross my arms and lean back in my chair.

“Nothing.  Sorry.  I didn’t mean to imply…” he lets his voice trail off, knowing he’s made me mad.  “I’m just saying.  I’ve seen situations like that end badly, that’s all.  I’m not accusing… Why did Sylvie leave again?”

“I don’t know.  She just didn’t want to be in the industry anymore I guess.”

He nods.  “Well, anyway, I am happy for you.  This will be great experience.”

 

What I’m reading: books to movies

When I heard that The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins was going to be a movie I was SO EXCITED! But as we’re getting closer, I’m feeling a little bit ambivalent about it.

There have been a lot of books into movies over the years. I don’t know if it’s just my current reading list or a coincidence, but a lot of the books I’ve read in the last few years have become movies. Unfortunately, I’ve been pretty disappointed in all of them. The one that I thought did it best, recently anyway, was Eat, Pray, Love. Even that one didn’t do the greatest job following the book, but the general gist of the story line was the same.

As a reader, when a book really resonates with me, I have a very clear movie of it in my head. In a lot of ways it’s disappointing to find out that my movie version didn’t match with someone else’s (or that it was just too expensive to make it!). But there are real contstraints of time and money when making a movie based on a book. And there is the visual element: everyone’s vision of what’s happening and what characters look like is somewhat personal, established by their own life experiences. It’s all about perspective.

The Hunger Games is a powerful book with some incredible imagery. It’s also incredibly disturbing and violent in some areas. I honestly don’t know how they are going to portray the horrors of the story without making a rated R movie.

What do you think? Which of your favorite books have become movies. Was it done well? If you’ve read The Hunger Games, are you looking forward to the movie?

Pinteresting this week: Recipies

Pinterest is a great site for recipes and food ideas, among the bajillion other reasons to love the site. These are my favorite finds this week:

Low Calorie Microwave Protein Muffins from Smoothie Girl Eats Too

Dr. Oz's Butt-Busting Brownie

Hoping to make both this weekend, it looks like I’m going to have some free time while we wait for the thunderstorms (hopefully no tornados) to blow through.

Favorite Internet resources for teaching kids

Sight Words Worksheet

One of the best things about the Internet is all of the free teaching tools. This morning I found this incredible handwriting practice program via a friend’s board on Pinterest. It’s free and there is nothing to download.

This site has a plethora of fabulous free teaching resource links. Additionally, if you follow her blog/facebook/twitter/newsletter, she posts several amazing deals each day that don’t require extreme couponing craziness to partake in.

What are your favorite resources on the web?

This week on etsy: Steampunk

Do you know what “steampunk” is? I didn’t. According to Wikipedia:

Steampunk is a sub-genre of science fictionfantasyalternate history, and speculative fictionthat came into prominence during the 1980s and early 1990s.[1] Steampunk involves a setting where steam power is still widely used—usually Victorian era Britain or “Wild West“-era United States—that incorporates elements of either science fiction or fantasy. Works of steampunk often feature anachronistictechnology, or futuristic innovations as Victorians might have envisionedthem, based on a Victorian perspective on fashionculturearchitectural style, and art. This technology includes such fictional machines as those found in the works of H. G. Wells and Jules Verne, or the contemporary authors Philip PullmanScott Westerfeld and China Mieville.

I love the clockwork and gears that dominate the steampunk style. Etsy has an amazing steampunk community and this week, I’m highlighting some of my favorites.  Check it out! 

 

What I’m writing: Clouded

(drum roll, announcer voice)

Ladies and gentlemen, children of all ages, welcome to the unveiling of…..Amanda’s first novel!

(applause, screams and cheers)

Well, this isn’t quite my first novel, it’s really my second. But my first needs a lot of work. So I’m going to start this column with scenes from this book.  It’s currently in its second draft and I feel like I have a pretty good idea of the revisions that need to be made in the third draft, but I would love your feedback! Going from the beginning, so today is…the first scene. No set up needed.

(This is a little nerve wracking….)

Clouded, by Amanda Moon

I whisper a prayer and push open the door to Clouded, Incorporated.  There is no one at the reception desk yet, but I can hear the sounds of people starting their morning routines all around me.  Chairs scrape against the floor, computers ding as they wake up, doors open and close.  Someone is putting dishes away in the kitchen, I hear the plates and cups as they clink against each other.  

It has been three weeks since I was last here right before Christmas vacation. I feel awkward standing in the entryway and I’m not sure if I should go find Laura, the office manager myself, or if I should wait until Nicole is back at the reception desk and check in. I recognize many of the people walking around, but those that see me either don’t know who I am and don’t want to stop and find out, or don’t realize I’m no longer an intern.

“Oh, Addie, good, you’re here,” Laura says as she run-walks from the kitchen toward the corner office carrying a steaming cup of coffee.  “Head into the conference room, we’ll be right there.”

The office door is closed behind her before I have a chance to respond.  The office she just entered is Seth Mitchell’s, the president and CEO of Clouded.  It’s in the front corner of the building, and I get nervous just looking at the door.  He built this empire from the ground up.  My goal is to get the opportunity to learn from him.

The office is a two story modern-brick building.  The wide, iron and wood stairway to the second floor loft is just to the right of the reception desk.  Behind me, tinted windows stretch from the floor to the roofline, making the building feel even taller than it really is.  The layout of both floors is essentially the same, a large common area in the middle with cubicles and general work spaces surrounded by offices.  The corners of the building are reserved for the larger rooms.  The back corners of the first floor are the conference room and a listening room, the front corners are Seth’s office and the reception area.  The second floor has a kitchen and a break area in the back corners.

I had interned at Clouded for six months, leaving just before Christmas with the promise of great recommendations if I found anything to apply for, but no leads on any job possibilities.  Then, last week, Laura had called, told me they were hiring, and asked if I could come in for an interview.  There were no details, no explanation of what had changed in the last four weeks that necessitated a new employee. 

I smile at the interns as I make my way past the cubicles to the conference room. By interning, we committed to work, without pay, for the company for at least one thirteen week semester, hoping to gain experience and make connections that will one day lead to a job in the music industry. I notice my old cubicle is empty, the large #6 is still hanging on the wall.  It was there to remind me and everyone around me what number I was.

“It’s just easier than trying to learn everyone’s name.  You understand, interns come and go so quickly in this business…” Laura had told her on the first day of the internship. 

I peak inside the few office doors that are open as I walk by.  Each has the same glass and metal desk: ultra modern and minimalistic, a physical reminder that, when you are doing your job well, the artist will be the only one that is noticed. Some walls have gold and platinum record plaques, others have concert posters.  I used to think you could judge a person’s success by what was on the wall.  Really, the only thing you can learn is their decorating style and how much they like to brag.

In the conference room I choose a seat in the middle of the table and pull my coat tighter around me.  I remember from interning that a flaw in the building’s ductwork prevents the room from receiving any heat when the door is closed.  Nicole is supposed to check to be sure it’s open whenever there isn’t a meeting, but judging by the temperature it must have been closed all night.  The walls are lined with gold and platinum records from artists I worked with at Clouded, many of whom I’d been a fan of since long before I’d moved to Nashville. The comfortable leather conference chair and the cold, quiet of the room subdue my nerves.  The exhaustion that I have been battling the entire morning takes over and I have to fight the urge to lay my head down on the table and go to sleep. Besides interning, and taking a full load of classes at Belmont University, I a full time job at the front desk of a swanky downtown- Nashville hotel.  Twice a week I overnight, from 11:00 pm to 8:00 am.  the other three nights I work the evening shift from 3:00-12:00. I hadn’t known I’d be working the overnight shift when I agreed to the interview.  By the time I had my work schedule I was afraid I would look undedicated or irresponsible if I had tried to change the appointment.  I’m debating whether to go to the kitchen for a soda when Laura walks in, followed closely by Josh and Jonathan. The three of them greet me and choose seats on the opposite side of the table.  I’m worried I might be overdressed .

Laura is the office manager of Clouded, and was the first employee Seth ever hired. Her long black hair was hanging straight down her back, not quite dry, leaving moisture spots on the shoulders of the red cardigan sweater she was wearing.  Josh and Jonathan are two of the managers at Clouded.  They spend their days coordinating the lives of the bands they work with, everything from personal appearances to recording schedules. Jonathan is wearing his typical uniform of khaki pants and a plaid button down shirt. Josh’s outfit is the same thing he wears every day: jeans and a ringer-t. I had been torn when picking out my clothes for the interview.  After interning, I knew the office was very casual and that most people wore jeans every day, but I had always been taught that you dress up for interviews, so I chose a simple black dress and flat shoes.  

“How are you doing?  Did you have a good Christmas?” Laura asks, taking a sip from her coffee cup.  It’s a different cup than I had seen her with when she went into Seth’s office. 

“I did. “I stayed here, but it was nice.”  

“Oh, it’s too bad you didn’t get to go home! I know you would have liked to see your family!”  

I nod. She’s right, I would have loved to go home.  But I couldn’t get the time off from the hotel, and I’m trying to save as much money as possible.  I’m considering how much of this to explain when the door opens again.

“Great, you’re here!” Laura says as Seth walks in.  Immediately I’m happy I chose the dress.  Seth is dressed in a impeccably tailored gray pinstriped suit with sea-glass green shirt underneath.  His brown hair, slightly long, is just starting to curl along the nape of his neck and above his ears.  It looks at once perfectly messy and perfectly styled.  His eyes, the exact color of his shirt, do a quick scan of the room.  He overlooks me completely, making me feel even more nervous. My hands began to sweat despite the temperature of the room. I glance at Laura and she smiles in what I know is meant to be a look of reassurance, but it doesn’t reach her eyes. 

“Number Six,” Seth says glancing quickly at me and choosing a seat at the head of the table.  My heart sinks.  I hate being referred to as a number.  I had made it my goal to make Seth learn my name before I was done with my internship.  I guess I failed.

If my face registers my disappointment, Seth doesn’t notice.  He nods Jonathan. “Jonathan is taking over Shreds.  He’s going to need some help with the accounting stuff here while he gets that up and going.  The pay is $10 an hour.  How’s that sound?”

He has a file in his hands and starts flipping through the papers, not looking at me.  I wonder if the file has anything to do with me. Maybe it’s my resume?  I glance at Laura and Jonathan for some sort of clue and get nothing.

 “What is Shreds?” I ask, directing the question somewhere between Seth and Jonathan since no one is looking directly at me.

Seth rolls his eyes, looking at Jonathan.  I feel completely lost.

“We didn’t get a chance to talk about that, did we?” Laura says, overly cheery, absorbing all of Seth’s attitude and turning it into vocal sunshine.  

“Shreds is,” Jonathan says, leaning forward and folding his hands on the table, “our full-service merchandising company.  We are giving all of our artists the ability to maximize their peripheral profits by cutting out the middleman.  We will be the designer, the manufacturer, and the distributor for all of their merchandising needs, from CDs to t-shirts to lunch boxes.” He glances quickly at Josh, who is smirking, watching his coffee like it might start to do tricks.  I can tell he wants to laugh out loud.  Is he laughing at me, or at Jonathan’s sales pitch? 

Seth is nodding his head in agreement with everything Jonathan says, giving the impression that this has been rehearsed.  Jonathan continues, “I need you to help me get the stuff done here, so I can focus on what I’m doing over there.” 

Everyone is looking at me now.  I’m weighing several questions in my head, such as “Where is over there?,” “What exactly will I be doing?,” and “What are the hours?” Before I can decide which one to ask Seth has pushed his chair away from the table and looks ready to leave.  I calculate quickly and say the most enthusiastically neutral thing I can think of.  “Sounds great!” 

“So,” Laura asks, “You’re accepting?”

Am I accepting?  I don’t even really understand the job yet.  What does helping with the accounting stuff entail?  Seth’s standing now, obviously ready to go.  Any job in the music industry is better than nothing, so I dive in. “Absolutely.”

It’s the right answer, everyone is nodding and smiling.  I feel like it’s okay to ask some of the more necessary questions now.  “What are the hours?  When do I start?

“Let’s start out with ten to fifteen a week or so,” Seth says.  “You can work it out, but we’ve got to stay within the budget.” He gives Jonathan a meaningful look, then walks out the door.

“You can set your own hours,” Laura says.  “But they need to be regular.  I need to know when you’re going to be here.”  I watch her eyes follow Seth out the door.  She looks worried, and I wonder what is going on.

“Yeah, me too,” Josh says. He laughs out loud, unable to hold it in anymore.  I had almost forgotten he was there.  I look at him, and his eyes tell me that he doesn’t understand why he was included with the interview any more than I do “That was fun,” he says, standing up and shaking my hand. “Welcome aboard.”  

“Seriously,” Jonathan says, “We’re glad you accepted!”

He pats me on the back and walks out with Josh.  I see them go into Jonathan’s office and close the door.  Seth’s door is also closed when Laura and I come out of conference room.  I see her face cloud over again when she at his door.

“Should I ask Jonathan about my hours?” I ask standing awkwardly outside of the conference room.  I’m not sure if I should move towards Laura’s office on the left or Jonathan’s office on the right, and it’s obvious that Laura is dealing with something else in her head.

“No, that’s fine,” she sighs and walks to her office.  “I need to do your paperwork anyway.  Can you start tomorrow?”  She sits down and begins shuffling through a drawer, periodically pulling papers out of the file folders and stacking them on her desk.

“No, I have school and work tomorrow.”

“Oh.  Okay. I didn’t realize you were still working.” We didn’t discuss the fact that I was still working at the hotel.  Laura looks a bit annoyed at the thought that I might be considering anything more important than Clouded. 

“Only for now,” I say quickly. “I am still at the hotel.  But if this ever becomes full time, I can quit. It’s just at night anyway. I have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but my mornings are wide open Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  I can be here whenever you need those days.”

“9:00 on Friday?”

“Sure.  How’s 9-2, Monday, Wednesday and Friday?”

 “Perfect,” Laura says, handing over the stack of papers she had accumulated on her desk.  “Fill these out.  I’ll see you on Friday.”