I’ve got a new scar that runs around the front half of my neck from where they removed my Thyroid and limph nodes today. The crazy thing is, mentally I feel worse now that I did while I was waiting for the last few weeks.

When they were in the OR they confirmed that I do indeed have Thyroid Cancer. Until they took the thyroid out, it wasn’t 100%. So between that tiny percentage chance that all of the pre-op tests were wrong, and the healthy (or unhealthy) dose of denial I’ve been living with, I haven’t really faced the reality of that word yet.

I have cancer. That sucks. I started to cry earlier and then realized that was a terrible and painful idea. Luckily Chris was here to calm me.

I am so blessed with the way our friends and family have rallied around us. Thank you everyone, thank you.

After seeing a note about it on Playing Grown Up, I just watched the first episode of Sister Wives, a new show on TLC about a polygamist family in (of course) Utah.  The current wives and husband have all been together for 16 years, but he has been courting another woman and is about to bring her in as a wife also.

Religious views aside, I just really don’t think I could deal with the jealousy issues that that lifestyle would raise.  I’m bad enough and my husband isn’t even out looking for another!

I’ve gone back and forth on whether or not to post this, but if you’re reading it I guess it means that I have made a decision.

As far as cancers go, it’s really not so bad.  They’ll take my thyroid out (1 night in the hospital) and maybe do a radiation treatment (another night in the hospital) and then I’ll be cancer free and on my merry way.  2 nights in the hospital, and I should be 100% cured.  All in all, not so bad considering it’s cancer.

The worst part has been telling people.  I specifically asked my doctor if I should just tell people I was having my thyroid removed rather than saying I had thyroid cancer, and she very pointedly told me to tell people I have cancer, because I do.  I don’t know if she thought I was in denial about it myself, but I guess in a lot of ways it’s easier for me to think that I’m just having my Thyroid out and not that I have cancer.

My surgery is Tuesday, October 5.  If you want more information about Thyroid Cancer, my doctor recommended this website. It’s very informative, and we’ve found it very helpful.

On September 25 my grandfather celebrated his 80th birthday.  The party was in Minnesota, so, unfortunately, we weren’t able to go.

Instead…

I did the Women’s Half Marathon.  It was a blast- everyone was so excited to be there and so nice!  I walked it because I’m not supposed to exercises too hard right now (having blood pressure issues) but I still finished in just over 3 1/2 hours.  I got a pretty amazing blister on my right foot, so all week I’ve been wearing my Five Fingers shoes.  They’re basically like wearing rubber socks- the insides are perfectly soft and the outsides are sturdy enough to keep your feet clean.  I love them.