As I was afraid might happen, as things got crazy-busy at work this spring I lost track of my goals and neglected my monthly check-isn. I also focused so intently on fishing The Pilates Lifestyle that I forgot about other writing projects all together, save for a few one-off pieces I did here and there.

Well, I’m back now, and sitting down with the goals. I was excited to find out how many I had achieved, but shocked to realize that I had much higher hopes for getting my clothing line off the ground than I have realized.

Now I’m in a quandary: what do I do?

I have plenty to do to get my easy stores going: i have one up but have yet to make a sale. I could definitely do with spending some time focusing on getting that off the ground.
I could re-dedicate myself to writing a few query letters each month (i think 10 is too many) to try to get some regular, paying writing gigs.
I need to decide what my next writing “project” is and get started on it.
I could focus my weekly time (yes, I get one afternoon/evening of alone time each week. I’m lucky, I know. I call it sanity time.) on really putting some more effort into getting this clothing line off the ground.

How do I decide? Each of these things is very important to me. However, 2 of the four require a monitory investment that I’m not sure how to come up with. I would love to get the clothing line going- if nothing else so I could have better clothes to work out in. But I don’t have the faintest idea where to start, and that’s paralyzing!

I do know that I need to revise some of my deadlines, and, in turn, some of my expectations of myself. While I would like to think I can put as much effort into all of these dreams as I would a full time job, the reality is that my actual full time job, along with my part time job and my family, take up a lot of energy. I had thought that I got further along postpartum I would have more energy, and I do, but I also have fewer waking hours that the kids aren’t awake. They are too young right now to fully focus on anything else if they are around, so while I can get little things done here and there, I can’t do “projects” except during my Sanity time.

What goals are you currently working towards? Are you at a crossroads? How do you decide where to go next?

My parents got this blender when they got married 32 years ago. It still works. When I first moved to Nashville I went through 4 blenders in 3 years. They just don’t make the same high-quality kitchen appliances these days I guess. A few years ago I did bite the bullet and buy this one (same brand as Mom & Dads) and it’s still working. Let’s see if it lasts for 30+ years!